Dream of the Stars....*

Sun, 28 Nov 2004 06:10:53 GMT

Today was fun i went shopping then came home and carly called me and her frannie and whitney waited on my porch while i was out to eat, then i came home and hung out with them and then carly left then whitney left then frannie left and i went to my aunts.

ASSHOLE.

Fri, 26 Nov 2004 20:35:05 GMT

People shouldn't flatter themselfs, they are not all that hott.

I didn't really like you much in the 1st place,... Your to immature for me. And instead of talking behind my back you should of said something to my face. Because playboy I'm not obsessed with you... not in the least. I don't like you now, and I haven't liked you in a long time, I don't care if you didn't want a relationship because I NEVER wanted one with you..

Sun, 24 Oct 2004 20:53:42 GMT

well my weekend was fun on friday we had the football game we lost but i still had fun b/c i was really hyper... saturday was saras surprise party that was really fun.. but after me and my parents got in a fight like always :/ and today i hung out with carly she went tanning and i sat in the lobby like always and when we came back to my house we had a water fight lmao she called mike and then we made mac and cheese (spongebob kind) and then she was captain underpants and i was the band nerd lmao... man i just wish my parents would understand me just a little bit.. they think they know me when they dont they dont know shit... i mean they tell me i have a good life but damn i dont think anyone with a good life can be depressed for almost 3 years now can they? i mean i want to get better i hate being depressed i ask my parents to see a shrink.. i mean yea they work for a while but they usually end up being ass holes and i end up telling them off and i end up being depressed again.. yeah well my moms bitching at me like always so i'll update later

Tue, 19 Oct 2004 19:49:17 GMT

well today was a normal day of school but joshy was mad at us all so he didnt get to hear amanda ryan and mine song and its kick ass!.. yea in rohloffs class we have to do a project and amanda michelle and my town is call soukiville its a kickass name but the rest of the day sucked... man i feel like im losing all my friends... i mean i barely talk to any of them anymore and all i end up doing it sitting on my ass alone and it sux.. i feel like im pushing everyone i care about away from me i feel alone:/

Tue, 19 Oct 2004 01:47:07 GMT

well i'll just tell u my weekend was fun but boring if that makes sense... on friday i went up to hoover 11 with whitters kay and kay's cuzin and then i came back to my house and got killer cramps :( on saturday i went with carly tanning and then to frannies house and we walked up to mcdonalds and put the fat jasmine in the mailbox and then later that night whitters and kay came over and we were playin around in my band uniform it was funny stuff man and on sunday i went with my parents to see ladder 49.. omg that movie was sooo sad i cried lol and today i just went to school and to my lil cuzins birthday party at ceasers land and i played in the playplace it was fucking awesome!! and i got candy it was the best fucking birthday party ever!

Thu, 14 Oct 2004 21:08:33 GMT

ok so i havnt updated in forever because there isn't shit going on in my life... well there still aint but im going to write in here anyways.. well today was boring i had to skip 1st and 1nd hr b/c my shrink is "worried" about me... im sure hotly and butkett are happy about that... oh wells well nothing really happened in 3rd hr except me and sarah were trying to get money from people so we could go buy me a braclet but we needed 25 cents but no one would give it to us. well nothing happened in fourth hour... but ya know lunch was pretty interesting like always we were acting stupid when amanda tells mike i like him and i end up looking like a fucking tomato it was so embarassing... but yea 5th and 6th hr all we did was write our papers... so yep that was my day... oh my cells broke and i cant get a new one so im pissed about that... man today was kinda a shitty day.... well hopefuly tomorrow will be better

oh yea congrats to all the j.v cheerleaders were going to be awesome :)

Sun, 22 Aug 2004 14:19:36 GMT

just got back from upnorth, my mom was suposed to take me and carly to great lakes crossing today but didnt! arrrr..
i might be getting a bed with a slide on it!

Fri, 23 Jul 2004 02:01:44 GMT

hey all sorry havn't writtin in a while but im back :)

there isnt nething new in my life.. still with the same guy... i guess lol.. carly did my highlidhts today :) they are sooo fuckin []D [] []V[] []D lol.... well i dont know what to type about so i will update more 2morrow

<33 Bethy

i think i like him :/

Mon, 21 Jun 2004 02:59:15 GMT

yesterday was my birthday!!! woot woot! lol and today me and kailee just hung out !

Happy Birthday Kailee i wish it coulda been better!! lol well c ya'll later

Mon, 31 May 2004 03:06:51 GMT

Hey all sorry i havnt updated in like FOOOREVER!!!! lol.. tomorrow is memorial day i really dont feel like going to the parade.. i feel like total shit!! but my mom and dad are gonna make me go anyways.... this month we went to boston!! woot woot!! lol many many good tymes there lol... dude i am never ever gonna have a boyfriend?! i'm gonnna be single forever!! lol o well i'll grow old with a million dogs b/c im allergic to cats and be like Boo Radley and never leave the house.. lol well im gonna go watch a movie and fall asleep watching it ☼ToOdLeS☼

Sun, 02 May 2004 02:45:29 GMT

You Suck And That's Sad.

REALLY sad.

Which Happy Bunny Saying Are You? (With Pics)

Thu, 29 Apr 2004 00:56:26 GMT

Hey yall! sorry havent writtin in a while.. but today sucked some major ass i came home frm school puking my brains out and i just slept the whole day.. untill now b/c i have to do my fat ass lil brothers homeworl gurr lol well i have nothing to say really... update later

Sat, 24 Apr 2004 00:26:55 GMT

Hey guys could u fill this out for me? thanx

WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF:
I cried:
I asked you to help:
I was becoming suicidal:
I killed myself:
I died from natural causes:
I said I liked you:
I kissed you:
I started smoking:
I stole something:
I was hospitalized:
I ran away from home:
I got in a fight and you were there:

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:
Personality:
Eyes:
Face:
Hair:
Clothes:
Voice:
Humor:
Choice of music:
Manerisms:
Family:

WOULD YOU:
Be my friend:
Tell me the truth no matter what:
Lie to make me feel better:
Spread rumors about me:
Keep a secret if I told you one:
Loan me some cash:
Hold my hand:
Take a bullet for me:
Keep in touch:
Try and solve my problems:
Love me:

Sat, 24 Apr 2004 00:17:09 GMT

sorry i havnt writtin in a while my computer had a trojan so i couldnt go on ne websites... but anyways... im back to my depressed mode witch sucks some major ass this means more thinking about stuff... more crying... and i hate to say it but maybe ((hopefully not))cutting... i feel like i am losing all my friends and that ihave no one to talk to anymore and i just feel like im a no one and i bet all of u are thinking yeah you are... well i guess im going to go... god i hate this shit!

Wed, 07 Apr 2004 01:26:02 GMT

well today has been an awful say but thank god for the 1/2 day tomorrow.. but we had our first track meet today.. we lost =0( i didnt get to throw i thought that was crap! but whatever all i did was measure shots with katie and then i came home and saw my report card.. lets just say im grounded forever! lol well if anyone wants to do something tomorrow on the 1/2 day tell me! i love you all!
☼ToOdLeS☼

Wed, 31 Mar 2004 03:00:23 GMT

i am soo happy im getting over my depression witch it AWESOME!!!!!! i deserve a cookie lmao well tyme for a shower! got to get clean as a wistle! lol
☼ToOdLeS☼

Sat, 27 Mar 2004 00:33:22 GMT

heyYyY what up people?! notta lotta here... well this week was busy! woo! okay..lemme tell ya
Monday: i went to 1/2 of school then my mom took me to the er to talk to a psychiritrist then after that lessons fun shit
Tuesday: school then after that track and then thearpy ((not fun))
Wednesday: School then i went to lessons (i had to skip track =0( )
Thursday: PhysicalSchool and then track then band pictures i hate them i watched my show friends thats almost done
Friday(today): School then track and my mom took me out to eat and now im writing that i know it dosent sound too busy but to me it was lol well im soo bored.. i have no new news.... i'll write back later! Luv you all!

☼ToOdLeS☼

Mon, 22 Mar 2004 00:54:50 GMT

hey hey! today sucked so much ass! well i had to go tomy grandma's birthday party witch pretty much sucked ass! my uncles are all soo annoying they are like whats ur gpa? are u being good? and just stupid shit like that and then my uncle seen my arm and told my dad about it and then my dad was like beth why did you do that and i just ran into the bathroom and balled my eyes out.. i mean i didnt want anyone to see it thats why i had a hoodie on but no they ended up seeing it and that sucked soo much ass... and then my cousin went into the bathroom and she saw me crying and she was trying to get out of me why i was crying and i was just like leave me the hell alone! and went outside and saw some of my friends.. and i talked to them but yea that was my day! i hope everyone had a better day then me.. well im gonna go upsturrs toodles!

Sun, 21 Mar 2004 03:33:41 GMT

Your Suicide.. by Konstantine
Your Name/Username
Favorite Number?
Favorite Color?
Gender?
How will you commit suicide?	You will slit your wrists
How many tries will it take?	42
When will you commit suicide?	February 26, 2018
What will your suicide note say?	"Mother, Father .. where did we go wrong?"

Created with quill18's MemeGen 3.0!

holy shit! this is soo fuckign true with me

Sun, 21 Mar 2004 03:17:52 GMT

lmao lastnight and today was funny.. okay last night carly came over and stayed the night and her and steve were playing phone tag witch was hilarouis... then i was talking to joey till like 2:30 in the morning talking about absolutley nothing witch is always fun and last night there was a scary t hunderstorm and carly was on the floor ((dont think im mean for her sleeping on the floor thats where she fell asleep))and when the loud thunder came i was like "CARLY GET UR FUCKING ASS UP HERE NOW!!!!!!!!!!!" i was scared shitless lmao then we woke up like at 10:30 and we did our "wakeup calls" lmao and then we watched a movie and then after that we went online and she was talking to steve and arguing with joey witch is always funny and then we played air hockey and we kept on cheating and then we went to the party store witch was the funniest thing ever! lmao i was flirting with the guy so much and then he made his dick move it was kynda scary and hes like ur not 18 yet come back when u are i was like no butim 16 and hes like i should go lock the doors it was histarical u had to be there! woah that was funny.. well tomorrow looks pretty boring yay my g-mas birthday party fun shit NOT!! i get to sit in a basement all day with my family witch are all older then me so yay! well im gonna go now! toodles!

Sat, 20 Mar 2004 01:48:08 GMT

Top Ten Bands
Ten:: martina McBride
Nine:: good charlotte
Eight:: simple plan
Seven:: blink182
Six:: korn
Five:: slipknot
Four:: ludacris
Three:: limp bizkit
Two:: papa roach
One:: linkin park
What Song Makes You Think Of...
Friends: i'll be there for you
Cold:
Heat: ima slave 4 u- britney spears
Sadness: concrete angel- Martina McBride
Joy: the happy happy joy joy song- ren and stimpy baybe
Anger: broken home-papa roach
Wind: i have no clue
Water: waterfalls- tlc
Fire:
Earth: captain planet theme song lol idk
Jealousy:
Death: hold on- good charlotte
Space: space cowboys-*nsync
Blood: wait and bleed-slipknot
Confusion:
Kissing: with you-jessica simpson
Growing Old: forever -the beach boys
Childhood: grow up-simple plan
Love: the way you love me-
Sex: fuck you gently-jack black
Food:
Best for the Occasion?
Homework:
Housework: anything on the radio
Suicide: Hold On- Good Charlette
Sex: fuck you gently- jack black
Kissing:
Death: kim-eminem
Fighting: momma said knock you out-?
Falling:
Screaming:
Crying: tribute to 9-11- Dj sammy and some lil gurl talking
Exercise: phyiscal- Olivia newton john
Running Away: running away-hoobastank
Breaking Up: Bounce-Sarah Connor
Getting Together:dont take the girl- tim mcgraw
Sleeping: anything of *nsync
Waking Up: anything heavy metal
Creating: bounce-sarah connor
Destroying: Fuck It All- Slipknot
Partying: where the party at?-nelly j.e &j.d
Being Alone: freak on a leash-korn
Favorite 5 Lyrics
Five:: if everyword i said could make u laugh i'd talk foever.i asked the sky just what we had ooo it said forever.. ooo forever.. forever... if the song i sang to you could fill ur heart with joy i'd sing forever.. forever... forever... oo i've been so happy loving you..
Four:: i never asked for this feeling i never thougt i would fall i never knew how i felt till the day u were gone i was lost i never asked for a forsist i wasnt looking for love some how i let my emotions take hope
Three:: you can change your life.. you can change your clothes you can change you mind but thats the way it goes.. but im gonna keep your jeans and ur old black hat they look good on me ur never gonna het them back. at least not today
Two:: breathe in for luck breath in so deep this air is blessed you share with me this night is wild so calm and dull these hearts the y race form self control...
One:: fuck what i did it was ur fault some how fuck all those presents i threw all that shit out fuck all that crying it didnt mean jack well guess what yo.. fuck you right back

Sat, 20 Mar 2004 00:31:52 GMT

Who is in your celebrity family? by cerulean_dreams
User Name
Mom	Jamie Lee Curtis
Dad	Jim Carrey
Brother	Carrot top
Sister	Hillary Duff
Dog	Shilo
Boyfriend	Ashton Kutcher
Best friend	Milla Jovovich

Created with quill18's MemeGen 3.0!

SINGLE AND READY TO MINGLE

Thu, 18 Mar 2004 20:58:59 GMT

holy crap that was sour! no joke! never eat a thing fulla sour sugar its very sour.. now thats out in the open today i have been really bitcy to just about everyone..... i dont know why but i have been... idk.. i really dont care either.. the only person i havnt been bitchy to was kailee and ryan wow thats weird... oh wells.. well today was boring i kynda slept through 1/2 my classes except for math when ms miley made me make up all my missing assignment before i could play cards gurrr but yea.. my day has been really easy all i did was sleep well except when i bitched out nick hudson gurr i hate that kid.. hes too annoying but oh well! well i have nothing else to write about.. maybe i'll write back when i get back from thearpy because i have some pretty funny stories when i come back from there lmao carly knows them... oh yea im single now and im ready to mingle!!

Wed, 17 Mar 2004 21:53:42 GMT

Hey everyone! today was a awesome day! i am soo hyper! i love my self! i have decided that i will not be depresses anymore! i am really happy today!!! =0) i dont know what im doing this weekend.. anyone wanna chill with me? im really hyper! wow i havnt heard this song in a while its great.. well im gonna go i'll c u all either in school or online later tonight! toodles!!

Sat, 06 Mar 2004 04:19:51 GMT

hey whats up guys?! today was pretty fun.... well untill a few minutes ago.... i mean i dont know whats up with me and my boyfriend anymore.. idk its weird.. im so upset right now.. its not cool... well anyways.. im sorry carly =0( i hope things work out for ya.. tomorrow is MSBOA i do not want to go! i hate band but oh well... my parents are making a huge deal out of it they are like beth omg this is the biggest day of your life im like dude whatever shut up.. its not that big of a deal lol well im goin to bed now ttyl